Waiting For it to Hit Home
Hmmm. I am not a big fan of Christmas, really. Which is not to say that I don’t enjoy it, because I do, more that there are a million things about the season which fucking irritate the living shit out of me. A simple example would be the appearance of Christmas decorations in shops in October; that annoys everyone, I know, I am not claiming to be unique here. High Street Christmas is an ungodly shitfest of an invention, and the less I have to do with it the happier I am, generally.
Then, on the other hand, there’s actual Christmas. There’s the dark and the cold, both of which I love, funnily enough. Then there’s the quiet evenings with family and all the food and watching the Back to the Future Trilogy one after another and all that sort of stuff. Hell, I even kinda like the decorations. I really like that Christmas.
The thing is, the first, shitty kind of Christmas starts really early so it’s basically the only kind of Christmas there is available for the best part of two months. Then, at some undefinable point, Proper Christmas quietly takes over and the whole thing becomes very pleasant indeed. My Mum’s already been in touch to ask what kind of things we’d like her to cook when we get to France on Christmas Eve. Christmas trees are available everywhere, and for some reason I really like Christmas trees. So it’s starting: actual good, decent proper Christmas is starting to rear its head, but it’s not there yet.
For some reason I am still waiting to actually feel at all Christmassy. I suppose the contradiction of despising the high street at this time of year is that if you boycott it entirely, which we have, and if you make no actual Christmas effort yourself, which we haven’t, then you end up just a little short of the cues to trigger that Christmas feeling, which their relentlessly avaricious Yulery tends to do whether you like it or not.
So I think that at some point, probably towards the end of next week when everyone in the office stops even pretending and I start to feel a genuine panic at not having bought my bloody mother anything, I will start to feel that warm, restful, bosom-of-the-family kind of Christmas feeling, but it hasn’t happened yet. I can see Christmas starting to happen all around me, but for some reason I am still waiting to actually feel like it’s Christmas time.
Nick Cave & the Bad Seeds – Right Now I’m A-Roaming
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Lift to Experience – Waiting to Hit
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